Dreams.....

I wasn't planning this post but I have just received an email for Codham Park Equestrian about jumpcross training.  This time last year I was full of hopes a dreams to try and resume my jumping in some form or another career with Zulu.  This is when I discovered Jumpcross not to far away.

Zulu liked show jumping and I liked cross country so this would be perfect for both of us.  So I booked in on a training course and the competition a week later.... I think this was in March.  Like many things with Zulu, we never got there. Like a death, we are slowly coming round to the year anniversary of the dreadful news.  It took me another few months, Becky (again she crops up) to have a few words with me about the harsh realities and finally Zulu himself to stop letting me on board to finally accept it.  The dream was over.

I have a post in working as it has been for 3 months now about my Zulu story. I start, I get upset and I stop. 

I miss him as he was and even today at lunch with a client I talked about him, how low I got 

last year and where do you go when you get your lifetime dream and it fails.  Because, that is what he was, my childhood dream. My beautiful black stallion and my best friend. He was what I read about in all my teenage books.  My very own Black Beauty.  He is still here and we still love each other just as much. He seeks me out everyday and we always have the together time that independent Conor has never required. 

But, as much as you may not want them to. Dreams can change and move on, they don't have to remain static. It takes effort and willpower, it can be done. 

Let's look at the website and think how much Empress Eager will love it :-)