It's been a pretty horrible December if I'm honest. For me, I sprained my sacroiliac joint the first week and due to the fact I carried on doing the horses and picking Eager's back leg up at least twice a day everyday to poultice the hole in her foot really didn't help. Finally the week before Christmas, despite my brilliant chiropractors best efforts he told me if I carried on.... I would prolapse my disc. This I really didn't want. Also, the pain got even too much for me to bear so I even went to the doctors (gasp) who quite happily gave me 100 Tramadol and 40 Diazepam, happy Christmas to me :-) so I stopped! I put the putty in the hole in Eager's foot and spent two days in a Tramadol/Diazepam haze.... Not awful if I'm honest... But the Tramadol do have rather nasty side effects, really bad headache and nausea. So the day before Christmas Eve I went to Brian (the chiro) and he unlocked my back for about the 3rd time in 10 days and I spent the rest of the week just using the diazepam to keep the muscles relaxed which would appear to be working :-)
Back pain is something I don't think a lot people (mainly those who have never had it bad) get. I'm sure they consider you to just be a little uncomfortable, maybe a bit like the muscle strain you get when digging over the garden. Also, I guess it maybe used by a few people as a bit of an excuse sometimes. Trust me it isn't for me!
i do have a weak sacroiliac and have previously had one really bad incident about 3 years ago, where it was so bad that I would literally just hit the deck if i moved wrong. Thankfully this only ever happened at home. Lol. I've never looked into why my sacro is so bad, probably not helped by the riding, which puts a great strain on the pelvis, especially for women's which is shaped differently to a mans. I did get told in my teens by a doctor that I would suffer a lot as it was so long and the vertebra further apart than most people's.... Not sure how this is so important though as I am 5'9 and my husband who is 6'4 has no issues at all. Unfortunately, everything to do with the horses is so physical and I have exceptionally strong back muscles. So if I get any problem, my muscles are so strong when they spasm they stop the spine from moving, this is turn traps the discs causing inflammation and it locks... This hurts a lot. Add to this that this happens in my sacroiliac which is where your spine joins your pelvis. So my hips hurt, my walking gets affected and also it's next to the sciatic nerve which occasionally reminds you it's there and not only makes your legs and feet a bit numb, but also hurts a lot! I can only feel such sympathy for people in constant pain, it's horrible and really grinds you down. Your not consciously miserable, I was just trying to do stuff. But was aware that the first day I took the Tramadol, David commented that I was smiling and he suddenly was in a much better mood.
Which led me to another question... How my moods affect my husbands so much. It's not nice really. Thanks to the NLP I rarely get depressed or 'down' anymore but if I do. David literally loses the plot with me, starts being quite grumpy and distant, which in turn upsets me even more. I guess only he can answer and now the time has gone I can be a bit more objective about it and think its probably because he feels so helpless. But at the time it just feels to me I am up shit creek without a paddle and he is just looking at me from the side with a frown on his face going about his daily business. Weird, but sometimes I just can't be on my A game all of the time. Although, saying that.... I'm not entirely sure what the alternative is. LOL
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